Do it Differently in 2018

We got back from the Mexico retreat in the wee hours this morning. In bed by 2am. I haven't been "home" since before New Years. Waking up this morning, I felt different (the retreat worked!). I feel different. So now it begins - doing 2018 differently. There is a palpable shift inside, and although I don't know what it all means and looks like, I will be paying attention. I am on the lookout for how to  do it differently this year. Not that there was anything wrong with how I did it last year. Like the Universe, I'm just evolving, so why not pay attention to that?

Co-leading an amazing transformational New Year's retreat from Dec 29-Jan 6 was a total reboot - more than I thought. It probably helped that I had a cough/cold/flu most of the time, which made me do the retreat differently as well. More about not doing. More about allowing. Surrendering into trust and knowingness. Taking care of what is needed in the moment, whether that was me saying "no" to going on an excursion in favor of resting, or being honest and in present moment about my daily choices, and observing my thoughts and actions.

So here we are, back at the ranch, home on the range, with a clean slate. I feel a depth about how to approach this new project "Jean in 2018," and I know that cultivating more relaxation is a part of the through-line. And other things that I'm not publicly sharing right now. And they will unfold no matter what because life happens, more happens.

So for today, how can I cultivate more willingness to be open to staying out of my old habits, old thought trajectories, old hamster wheels, and spend more energy surrendering my pictures?

Let go. Just Know.

First Day of Epiphany

In customs line. Security line with security guards. I feel pretty secure. But I don’t think that my security needs guarding. It just is. 

What Am I Willing to Do?

Without Willingness, we may not stand a chance. What am I willing to know? What am I willing to see? What am I willing to admit? What am I willing to say? What am I willing to hear? And then for change - what am I willing to do differently?

Is Time on Your Side?

Is time on your side? If not, it can be...

Am I willing to take the time I need to get the result I am seeking?

And So Are You

Just like the saints and deities are aspects of the Divine, broken down so we can see parts of It, allowing us a way to comprehend It, relate to It, digest It better, So Are We.

Another 365

Happy New Year and Day 1 of the revisit to the 365 Conversations game. It’s been quite some time since I’ve blogged consistently in this format, and I am inspired to do this 365 consecutive days in a row once again. My “intention” was to start on Jan 1, 2018 - in numerology a number 4 - to start building a new foundation for a very different year, not that there was anything empirically wrong with my “last year.” Last year felt like a turning point, a starting over. This year feels like clear movement with a clearer focus, more honesty (#gethonestfaster).  

Back to my “intention.” Yesterday I felt thick and sick. Cough, cold, achy joints, the whole bit. I’m leading a retreat with my teaching partner in Mexico. We were up late on New Years Eve doing a full moon ceremony, and quite frankly, although I was inspired to write, I couldn’t muster the energy. So instead of saying, “well, I blew it! I didn’t start on New Year’s Day, that dilutes the energy so why do it? what’s the point of all of this anyway,” I got out the keyboard and started plunking out this blog, right here right now, on the morning of Jan 2, 2018 in Tulum. I still have the cough and cold, but I”m feeling better, so no time like the present because time and space only exist on this dimension anyway! In other words, it’s not too late!

So as we look at those New Year’s intentions, or resolutions, resolve every day. Start every day. That way you take it one day at a time and you lower the chance of dissappointing yourself or feeling like you’ve failed yourself. You are your Self. And that’s pretty great.

From My Hand to Gods Eye? Or Gods Eye to My Hand?

Hand-eye coordination. It's connection. Connecting insides to outsides. The eye sees something and then the hand moves through time and space to connect with it. My internal connects with the external.

Which is another way of connecting the physical and the non-physical. Or matter and spirit. Or little s self to Big S Self. Or personality to the divine. It's another way we bridge.

So let's play ball! However that looks. And whether it's my eye to God's hand, or God's eye to my hand is probably a chicken/egg thing, or me just trying to squeeze yet another metaphor from a colloquialism.  The desire to connect is everywhere.  Just sayin...